Isn’t it funny how we tend to go on a retreat or vacation when we want to find our Selves? I picture this little voice inside of me yelling, “I”m right here; I’ve always been here. You just have to look!!” But that’s challenging when there are errands to run, chores to do, & appointments to keep. We’re so busy DOING that we leave no time for BEING.
Being in that predicament, I felt the need to get away from the busyness of daily life & go to a place where it would be peaceful enough for me to hear my Self & serene enough for me to reconnect with my Self, without distractions. So, I went on a week-long retreat to the Omega Institute in Rhinebeck, NY. Absolutely one of the best experiences of my life!!
I woke each day when I was ready, not because of a buzzing alarm clock. I performed a ceremony to connect with the earthly & divine… plugging in to the energy that not only connects us all but comprises us all. I also tried different forms of meditation. While I tend to squirm after a few minutes of seated meditation, the focused attention of walking mediation resonated with me more. By walking very, VERY slowly, I could hear the chipmunks scurrying through the bushes; feel the breeze on my skin; & notice the waterlilies & koi in the pond near the Japanese-styled Sanctuary. I tuned in to nature. And when my overactive mind took me away from the present moment, I focused on my breath, let go, & got back to HERE & NOW.
It boils down to this: By relaxing my mind, I was able to hear the authentic voice inside of me. The voice that had been there all along.